I've been working on a little box this week...It's just a trinket, but sometimes I think, why in the world am I devoting so much time to this task? I know the answer is that it's something that allows me to express myself, it's playtime, a time I can let my imagination go, make something just to make something...not to please anyone else but me. I also think I need to do it for my sanity. It distracts me from thinking too much! Worrying about this or that, my parents, my kids, even morbid thoughts...I guess the older you get, the more you realize you aren't going to live forever...so even as silly as some of these things are that I find myself creating, I am so blessed to be able to make them!
Fun to be able to share them here too..but even though I don't have many visiting my blog yet, that's okay. I don't want to ever feel like I have to make things or do things a certain way to attract readers either. I guess I like using this space to write things like this, but it is fun too to meet people here and find others with common interests...plus, to see so many lovely things others make as well.
I've always been a loner type. I mean I have very close friends, but I've never felt a need to have a ton of friends. I like being by myself...I like going to antique shops by myself, book stores by myself, and sitting in my home reading or making things by myself. I don't have a need for constant conversation or company. Funny thing is, my husband does!!! He loves company, parties, people, constant stimulation from others...I guess I was attracted to him because of his great sense of humor and his ability to talk about anything. BUT, we are very different...not a bad thing, just fact.
Even as a little girl, I loved entertaining myself...My mom would want to invite lots of girlfriends over and I never wanted her to. I think part of it was shyness, but also, I just think it's who I am. I remember my dad(who is the life of the party) telling me to be more "gregarious". I always hated being shy, but now I think I'm just an introvert and that is OKAY. I don't have to be like my dad...I like being me now. I suppose it comes with time ...oh to be in my twenties again, but to have all my experience and wisdom that I possess now.
So anyway I got off on a tangent, but it is all for a good reason....
3 comments:
Hi Betzie! Happy March 1st.
I can relate to your words. I think many artists have shy backgrounds - thus the contemplation that leads to the art.
I had to laugh at your comment on my post - YES I hear voices too - I prefer to call them spirits instead of ghosts - the one talking to you is a very wise one!
Smiles, Cat
This whole thing sounded so much like me! I was always shy when I was a kid, and being an only child I spent a lot of time alone so I know how to entertain myself. I like having time to myself and I never feel the need to have someone around all the time. My hubby and I are opposites in many ways, too but he isn't gregarious or a party person.
Maybe we should start an "only child club", I do think it affects the way we grow, being an only child. I really enjoy my (alone time). And yes it would be a wonderful thing if we could go back in time WITH THE KNOWLEDGE WE HAVE GAINED! My honey and I are very different but it has worked for 40 years.
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